Book Reviews

Finding Grey (Return to You 1) by Rebecca Raine

Genre Gay / Contemporary / Artists/Actors/Musicians/Authors / Romance
Reviewed by Lena Grey on 09-March-2019

Book Blurb

The night Dante Sinclair lured me into his dressing room and gave me my first kiss, I was oblivious to one important fact: all rock stars are spoiled narcissists. I learned my lesson when our failed attempt at a reunion left me humiliated and heartbroken.

Now, Dante is booked into the music retreat I run. Years have passed, so I know he won’t recognise me. He’ll have no idea the man cooking his meals and washing his clothes is the same skinny boy he kissed so long ago. And when he begins to look at me like I’m his new favourite muse, my anonymity will be my only protection against the sensuality of his charms.

Grey. It’s the name I gave to the only boy I ever kissed. He is my favourite memory. The place my mind goes when the expectations of rock stardom threaten to choke me. I barely remember what he looked like, but I’ll never forget the way he made me feel.

When I came to this retreat, my goals were simple: get out of my creative rut and write my new album. But one look into Sean’s eyes is enough to threaten the tenuous control I have over my life. He swears we’ve never met, but there’s a Grey-ness to him that inspires me, even as it makes me ache to satisfy the cravings I’ve denied for so long.

He may not be my Grey—but he’s close enough.


Book Review

“Your memory feels like home to me. So whenever my mind wanders, it always finds its way back to you.” ~ Ranata Suzuki

Does age have anything to do with how deeply you can love someone? Does the fact that you are very young keep you from knowing when your heart has found its way home? It may not seem logical or wise, but love seldom is. At seventeen, rock star Dante Sinclair thinks he has it all, that is, until he kisses his first boy, whose name he never gets to ask before his father bursts in and drives him away. Dante names the boy Grey because of his mesmerizing grey eyes. For years, Dante wars against his bisexuality, never again daring to explore it. Secretly Dante yearns for another chance with the boy who, with one kiss, has stolen his heart.

At fifteen, Sean suspects he’s gay, but after his first kiss from Dante Sinclair, he is certain. Knowing nothing will come of it, but not willing to let go of the moment they shared, Sean sends Dante a birthday present every year. He has no way of knowing whether Dante receives them or even cares, but it’s something Sean feels compelled to do. Five years after the kiss, on Dante’s birthday, he has a concert scheduled in Sean’s hometown. Hoping to reconnect with “Grey”, he puts out a desperate plea on Twitter to ‘Grey’ to come to the concert, knowing that hundreds of “Greys” will show up, but hoping that one of them will be “his Grey”. When Sean sees the tweet, he knows he has to attend. As predicted, there are several others who ‘claim’ to be Grey. Feeling a bit like Cinderella, there to try on the glass slipper, Sean bypasses the crowd, marches up to a security guard, and passes the “Grey test” by answering detailed questions about his encounter with Dante. The guard ushers him into a room to wait for Dante. After about an hour, Dante’s father appears and tells him he need not wait any longer for Dante because he’s already left with his girlfriend. Sean is devastated, leaves Dante’s present there, and goes home.

Sean tries his best to forget Dante, by constantly reminding himself what a fool he was for thinking that a narcissistic rock star could ever care about someone like him. Yet after all these years, Sean can still remember how amazing their one kiss felt and wishes there could have been more. After his Sean’s father retired from the music world, he and his mother opened a ‘Rock Star Retreat’, a place for musicians to get away from their hectic world and recuperate. Sean works there as a host, taking care of their clients’ needs such as cooking, cleaning, laundry, etc. When he learns that their next guest will be none other than Dante Sinclair, he throws a fit! Sean tells his father that he cannot take care of Dante, but his father insists. Sean is angry, but doesn’t want to let his father down. Begrudgingly, he greets Dante and, in a very professional way, explains his duties. With a hint of recognition in his eyes, Dante asks if they have met before. Sean looks straight at him and lies, telling him no. After all these years of resentment, Sean is not about to let Dante off the hook that easily.

This is an endearing love story, reminding me that things are seldom as they first seem. A comedy of errors and a father who cared more about money than his son have kept these two young men apart. Fortunately, they have a matchmaking fairy godfather who provides them with a second chance. Sean is an endearing, talented, and loving man. Dante, although immersed in the rock star mentality, is kind, considerate, and drug free which, in itself, is a rarity in the music world. Thank you, Rebecca, for giving Sean and Dante their hard-earned happy ending.





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Additional Information

Format ebook and print
Length Novel, 308 pages
Heat Level
Publication Date 17-February-2019
Price $2.99 ebook, $14.99 paperback
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