Book Blurb
Ashley, a brilliant but anxious tech prodigy, has a system for everything, including people. Jonathan Anderson doesn't fit the system. He's fresh out of rehab, covered in tacky tattoos, loud in a way that makes Ashley's carefully ordered world feel slightly ridiculous. He is not what Ashley is looking for. Ashley has a list. Jonathan is not on it.
But their siblings are in love, and suddenly Jonathan isn't going anywhere. Thrown together by Catherine and Benny's relationship, and then their marriage, and then their children, Ashley and Jonathan become unlikely friends and the best uncles in the world to a growing brood of gloriously unruly boys. And somewhere along the way, without Ashley quite being able to pinpoint when, Jonathan becomes the person he most wants to be in a room with. Jonathan, former skateboarding champion, law school dropout, and dishwasher turned youth shelter worker, has been in love with Ashley for years. He's just had his own demons to fight first.
Ashley spends the better part of a decade telling himself it's impossible. He is not equipped for this. They are too different. He doesn't know how to love someone the way Jonathan deserves to be loved. So he does what he does best: he builds a wall, tends it carefully, and marries someone else entirely in a spectacular act of self-sabotage. It doesn't work. It was never going to work.
How long can he outrun the one thing he actually wants?
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